the clock is ticking.

it's unbelievable that 

within 5 weeks we'll be sitting for our A2 exams.

and that

within 5 months we'll be going into universities.

we're getting old.

we have so much to decide.

we need to make a hell a lot of choices.

we have so many expectations from our parents, friends. and mostly ourselves.

we'll be separated.

we'll see each other less often.

we may not be as close as before.

we will not have the life we use to have and love.

well i guess it's another step you take in life.

-

i think it's the stress that's really hitting me.

i'm having my internal exams, and today is the 2nd day and i've realised how screwed i am for my a2 exams, and if i don't work hard, i wont be able to go to ucl.

the offer is AAA btw. so i really have to work hard.

because i'm not gifted. i'm not naturally smart and i don't have a particular talent in any subject. 

if i'm not able to meet the offer, i wouldn't want to regret and say that i never work enough to achieve what i had. 

i want to do the best i can.

oh god i sound so bloody emo.

shit. i have to study shit shit....

sabrina.

(p.s this blog will remain untouched until the summer when i finish my exams, sorry :D )

so what happened this term.

i'm currently updating my mac :D

it took me a few days to get used to it and started to customize it, and sadly i'm still not done 

with it. here's a screenshot click here if you want a larger view. 

so what happened this term?

i moved dorms, well not the scary old walls anymore, bell, is much more central and new, definitely, and plus we live just opposite the guy's dorm.

and guys that live opposite me are just interesting -.-

oh and i have new dorm mates, here are 2 of them, ching and mandy, we're the only 6.2's in the dorm, which is quite sad really, but people visit us from time to time :D.

well another thing i like about bell, is that it's bloody near to the student kitchen, it makes it easier for me to bake, but then again, i rarely have time to bake. But it's still a plus. Another would be it's really close to the sports hall. 

Speaking of which, i'm still very weight conscious. Being home makes me feel even worse, i've been sick theses couple of days and i'm still sick so i'm not exactly in the condition to exercise. and all i do know is eat, sleep and study abit. I lost a kg when i'm sick but i dont feel a bit healthy and i certainly don't look thin. And plus, it doesnt help when my dad constantly tells me to exercise. i'm so sick of it, it's not like i dont want to exercise, it's not that i'm not weight conscious. It's not like i don't care about myself.

Moving on, my room in bell is pretty cossy, it's on the 2nd floor so the ceiling's pretty high and my window overlooks the student kitchen, westend and the boys' dorms. 

These are pictures which i took when i first decorated my room with the photos, my room looks pretty different now cause i have put on some posters and more notices and stuff and  i also have moved my table to face the window, so my room looks so much more spacious now. 

the major events this term?

halloween,

christmas concert,

christmas dinner.

well there was hari raya, the mooncake festival and blue genes day. but i didn't post the photos here, they are on facebook though.

Halloween.

i've never celebrated halloween before, but i always wanted to because i always liked the idea of people dressing up and looking like idiots. but it never occured to me to know what halloween actually is about. 

anywho it was quite fun because alot of people dressed up and did quite a number of peoples' make up. Not ALAN hehehe :P which is the guy with tones of make up.

Christmas Concert.

i sang in the choir and did a solo with basil (in the picture..oh god), who btw is an awesome guitarist :D who manage to do this with me last minute sorry sorry.

hhehe either way, it was loads of fun performing and i wouldnt mind doing it again, maybe this time a duet? maybe? or i might even play the piano myself depending on how much time i have to prepare for my exams.

since i don't think i'll ever have the chance to do this in uni anymore. 

Christmas Dinner.

i still can't believe i was able to walk in my 4 inch stillettos for 4 hours plus and in the cold eventhough i had a huge bruise on my foot. After the christmas concert, lucky it wasn't during my performance, but after the concert, i managed to slip on one of the steps of the stage and landed on my butt, but i still dont know how did i get a bruise on my foot. (i still have the bruise btw, the doctor said it'll take 3-5 weeks to heal, GOD DAMN IT)

The night was pretty fun, and i'm sure more than half of the college was drunk. It was one of the rare times where there are actually alot of people dancing.

So what now?

i'm at home, supposedly studying for my retakes in january, but so far i've done quite a few of math past papers, but i couldnt bring myself to do econs. I get distracted by my computer and also tv. 

Honestly, I can't wait to go back UK, i honestly can't stand the weather here and plus, to tell you the truth, i don't have much friends at home, i was never really close to the people in my secondary school, but hell it's in the past right, i can't do much about it now. 

Sides, I am suppose to pay attention to my studies.

i'm looking forward to the new term though, new students and finally some people with personality.

sabrina.

bacckk in concord.

let's just leave this space blank, until my life actually gets interesting here.

thanks

:D

homeeee. yay this space is not dead!

ahhahaha so here are some pictures of the awesome time i had in concord =)

the photos are arranged from latest to the earliest pictures i had in concord!

a day at smithy's!


meet jean my dormate =)



she's crazy and she's from melaka! (why did you have to live there, live in kl lahh i miss youuu womann)

warwrick day trip!


the guy in the middle with no teeth, is my subway buddy, wei ren!
he's from singapore!
i can assure you that he's not kiasu, at least i dont think he is..

M&M's 18th!


meet (from clockwise) daryl, ching and daniel (jackkk!!!), that jack was drunk that night, and it was pretty funny that night watching him shouting at random people, even at butterflies



the whole bunch!
the party was at acton pigot, about a 5-10 minutes walk from campus.
it was minde's birthday and michael's birthday!




meet ding wei and michael! michael is my fellow guy poser, he's funny in photos =)
i'll post summore photos later, this post has just too many photos.
it just shows how much fun i had in concord.

talent show!


jenq yan's the guy in red and dana! is the one in yellow and minde is the one with the white blazer!
minde and michael sang together that night, they were great, and dana was one of the MC's.
dana's my aunty there =) she cooks and feeds me everytime i go to her room.

photo day!


alan. AH LANNN =) this guy also lives in singapore, and he is in my law class, but i droppped law hahahaha. but either way when i had law classes, we'd always be talking and the teacher would scold us.



from left: felix, chee yang, shane(the top), minde, ching, me, noah, jean.
felix is from hong kong wait or was it macau, sorry lah i forgot (dont kill me pls pls pls)
chee yang is from singapore! and so is shane! my sister and her friends call him windswipe because of his hair, too bad he has to cut it off for NS. awww :( (hahahahah)
noah's from sarawak! he's our senior! oh shane is our senior too! and he's jean's boyfriend.

west end opening/costume party!


from left: mandy, ching, me, yew hann(top), po leen, nikki, chee yang, dana.
mandy's from singapore, she's also and oldwaller, old walls is the place i live in so she stays in the same dorm just on the other block. she's damn tall, she's taller than me!!
yew hannn cooks alot! and he teaches me how to play foosball! (if that's how you spell it)
po leen is in most of my classes, she sits beside me in both of my maths classes, she's bloody smart.
nikki is po leen's roomate, she's really niceeee =)



kris is the one in red leggings, i was a 80's aerobic dancer but i dunno what she was trying to pull off she just said she wanted to wear silly and crazy stuff.
kris is my dormate, and she has 14 pairs of shoes or wait 15 pairs i lost count.

mayor's concert!



hahahaha my, jean and yew hann were in choir and we had to wear all black, and this made us looks like bodyguards and we just thought about camwhore.



ahhaha we were all wearing baju kurungs because we had dikir barat!



here are some more photos!

chinese new year dinner!


the dinner was in manchester! it was the first decent chinese food i had since erm i went there.



my fellow camwhorer =)



my dormatesssss!!

18th!


i know i know handcuffs, i had that as my bday present and i had to wear it through out tonight.



retarded picture!!! love ittt



at the thai restaurant, there's a thai restaurant in town, it's where we always eat.

cap go meh!


this was taken during dikir barat practicee, we were really bored.

before that we had hot pot at dana's dorm, the girl on the left is dana's sister, denise!

the hot pot was good, mm tom yam!

okay folks, i know it's alot of photos, but yeah i promise to write more tomorrow!

sabrina.

they blocked everything.

i officially.

can't blog in this place. i have absolutely no website i can go to, to upload photos, and besides they block every damn photo anyway.,

and they friggin blocked facebook.

if you gave me facebook i still wouldn't mind everything that's blocked.

FUCKING HELL.

sorry

internet here is crap.

i took loads (okay maybe not, i'm gonna do that togight) of me and my dorm mates and the small little room i stay in.

but i dont like alot of posts without pictures

SO

i will try... to upload some photos with this stupid connection

and hopefully i'd be able to come up with an interesting and long post with lots of photos

:D


sabrina.